Month: December 2013

SNOW

2013-12-04 13.43.20Living in MinnSNOWta we all knew it was coming but every year we pray and try to pretend that maybe the snow won’t come. Maybe the snow will wait till after the 1st of the year. Are we nuts…probably. I have to say a first snow is pretty it is that beautiful Christmas card scene. Then you go out and drive. Yep all pretty images are gone just cold fingers, cold toes, and maybe a curse word or two. Getting ready for winter and snow is like getting ready to have a baby. It is winter nesting. We get together the boots, snowpants, hats and gloves and pray we have pairs and they still fit. We make sure everything is picked up in the yard because you won’t see it again until till probably April.
Well the first storm came yesterday. We got the snow and then the blowing winds. Living out in the prairie the wind is horrible. It whips across and creates drifts that can be as big as a car. The drifts make the roads impassable. So today was the first and probably not the last 2 hour late start at school. Oh the kids love that. They still wake up at 6am but have 3.5 hours to waste before school. Today was TV and outside play. My daughter was out for about 3 minutes just to cold. My son on the other hand was out for quite a while. Crazy boy.
I know some people like this white stuff and cold but I am in the group that wonder why we live here. We are a hearty group of people, little nuts, but it is that good German and Scandinavian blood you know.
Welcome to winter what ever side of the snow debate you are on. Love it or lose it.

Night Silence

I find myself compelled to write about things that I wasn’t planning on writing about in this blog. But isn’t that life the unknown the ever changing.  Has anyone ever had everything planned out and it really goes that way? Maybe some but was it interesting then? As I sit down to write this I can’t get over how quiet it is in the house.  Everyone is in bed and my hearing aid is out for the night.  It is total silence.  There is no dripping faucets, no creaky floor boards, no furnace or fridge running.  I see an occasional car drive by but no sound.  How strange this is but at the same time amazing.  How you go into life and then the unforeseen detour on the road takes you on another direction.  So we are in for a major snow storm some saying upwards of 10 inches. Now the power just went out.  I am not kidding you can’t make this stuff up.  See the unforeseen always seems to happen.  So when this new path comes up what are you to do?  Learn to deal, make the best of it, find the positives, I guess I am still trying to figure that out.  I know my drive to write has been heightened and I want to go with that.  It is a wonderful outlet and maybe it will go somewhere someday.  Listening to music has been an obsession of mine for the past few days.  I don’t know why, I am a tv person. Love having the tv on as background noise and it is on all the time.  I haven’t turned it on in 3 days.  Kids think I am going nuts. I wonder why the music, am I somehow worried someday I won’t hear it?  Not sure, it has to be turned way up but I am loving it lately.  Life is an always changing organism. I am finding that out a lot in the past few years. With a move out to the Prairies of MN, with a son who receives an SPD and Autism Spectrum diagnosis and now hearing loss.  Always changing and we have to be receptive maybe not willingly but life goes on and we want to go with it.  

SLEEP

Ever have a craving? Maybe chocolate, or soda or if pregnant pickles and ice cream….I am craving SLEEP.  It has been a couple weeks of maybe a couple hours of sleep a night if lucky.  I fall asleep for an hour and then wide awake.  Sometimes I wish I was back to a small child and I could take a nap.  Just doesn’t happen.  Having a child with SPD can mean sleep issues and that is the case with my son. He wonders the house at night sleeps for an hour or so and then up for the rest of the night.  It is hard on this momma worrying what is he doing, what is he up to. Now I have my own mind racing at 100mph at night.  Do you know the stupid thing you can worry about at night…it is stupid stuff.  Going from normal hearing or near normal to needing hearing aids in a 2 week period can cause lots of thinking and reflecting.  My mind goes to why, can people notice, will it get worse. I know it could be a lot worse but in the middle of the night I am sorry you think about yourself, or at least I do.  As I drink my sleepy time tea tonight I pray that these worries will subside and my mind can be like my SPD son and just crash.  He gets to Thursday night each week and just crashes. I need a Thursday night.  To all the other SPD moms out there they know that days can be hard and nights can be harder. We all need that Thursday night once and a while.